Where did I go?

It’s been almost 3,5 months and I’m sure some of you might wonder where I went. To answer that question I would have to write a novel, which neither of us have the stamina or the time for.. So! The short story is that I did go on my planned trip to Italy, then Japan, returned to Sweden on the day of my graduation (which I had to run to, but that’s a different story!) followed by 2 months of me trying to deal with my depression.. After all I suddenly had a lot more time on my hands. It was time for me to deal with and take care of myself. 

I’m not close to being ok, but I’m ready for the next step and today I finally pulled myself together and started editing the first video of my adventure. It’s not much, but it’s a start and more is to come! Blog post, vlogs on youtube, and all those snack reviews I got piled up for you! I hope you are as happy about me being back, as I am. 🙂

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Monthly Update – April

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What a crazy month it has been!

I have finished my internship at Brewhouse, been insanely stressed out about my trip (with good reason), worked on my last assignments for school before my graduation and spent more time travelling back and forth between my family home, visiting my parents, and my apartment in Gothenburg. One part of me is so extremely excited about the trip to Italy and Japan that I have a hard time believing that it is finally happening, and another part of me is trying to finsih everything that is related to school. This means that my mind is pretty much all over the place, but it’s not at all bad! The biggest change that came with April is my mental health. Now I’m at a point where I not only function like my normal self, but I’m also filled with excitement and anticipation, and my depression is very, very far away.

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Monthly Update – March

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March of this year has probably been one of the most important months in years for me and the reason for that is that I’ve been pushing myself and learning about myself in ways I have never done before. Since November I have been dealing with severe depression, while trying to make decisions that will define my everyday life on a big scale – this is one of the most difficult things that I have ever had to do because the balance of not doing enough and overdoing is such a fine line, and it’s even more difficult when you struggle to get out of bed and getting food into your system. With this being said, I’m already doing a lot better since I got into my treatment, but I think most people see the more functional side of me and forget that basic things can really throw me off balance. I’m moving forward, but I have to take it one step at a time.

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Monthly Update – February

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It’s almost spring and I’m one month into my internship and only two months away from my trip to Italy and Japan. I’ve had a rough start this year, trying to figure out what I should do after graduation meanwhile I’m dealing with anxiety and depression and trying to get better. It’s a horrible feeling to watch time fly as you are trying your best to engage yourself, desperatly, into anything, and trying not to get stuck in the comfort of planning a trip.

I’m lucky enough to have my own space where I can breathe, and loved ones that make me laugh, and the curiousity to explore the world. Now I just have to find my way back to a place of excitement, strenght and motivation, and I do feel like every day brings me closer to it.

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Monthly Update – December

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It’s no secret that I abandoned the blog over a long period of time. I wasn’t sure what to make of it and I had zero time to figure it out. Now that the holidays are over it’s like I’m finally taking a look at “the problem” only to realize that I really don’t have a problem with it. I want to live a more creative life and I want to share it with anyone who is willing to listen (or read about it)!

The last couple of months have been hectic, studying full time and working retail during the holiday, I just needed a break to find excitement and fun in the things I used to do again, and now I really feel like I am back to stay.

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Monthly Update – October

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October went by really fast and I can tell you this – I feel it! I’ve been learning new, fun things at work and I started my very own class (that I designed myself) a couple of weeks ago (which included a visit the an exhibit with my friend Jannie, as you can see from the painting above). It’s been great, but I can’t wait to move forward.

The best thing about October coming to an end is that I am done with the distractions. I haven’t really written about it here but I’ve been dealing with several hospital visits to figure out why I keep having constant migraines and now I’m at a point where I’m doing fine and feeling healthy – which means I can focus on more fun stuff in November!

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My Creepy, Creative Side

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I’ve been pretty busy this fall, in fact I’ve been so busy that I basically woke up one day and Halloween was over and I missed the entire thing. (And on top of that, it’s also my favorite holiday). I still have a character that I want to create, and I will, because while I love Halloween, I don’t really need an excuse to dress up! Still I wanted to give you a little something, so here is my costume from last year that I wore to a huge circus themed party I threw for all my friends. Just watching these pictures makes me want to get started on the next project!

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